It was almost four years ago to the day, my husband came home, and I was miserable and frustrated again. The kids were not listening. To be honest, I went from a very demanding job in the Governor’s Office with high levels of stress to a job trying to maintaining a home and teaching my children. My new job as homemakers and homeschooler was my dream. I thought it was going to be easy and fun. It had been six months and I was wrong. The children had other plans on what their days should look like.
Our youngest son at the time was 21 months and receiving a ton of medical attention due to his delays. He wasn’t walking yet. He had apnea so bad he would stop breathing during the day at anytime. His snoring was over the top. Instead of having post nasal drip he had frontal nasal drip that streamed down his face all hours throughout the day.
My older son was 6 years old, brilliant, and rebelling against most school work. I would ask him to write 1 or 2 words and he would go outside and run circles around the house screaming “You can’t make me and I don’t want to.”
Throw in a beautiful, sassy and silly three-year-old girl. And a seven-year-old girl who wanted to please but was loud, full of drama, and impulse issues. And you have my life in a nutshell.
Homeschooling was hard. I couldn’t just teach them in a normal way. I had to make things engaging. It required a lot of time, energy, and planning. And certainly had to be done orally as much as possible for my son.
But it was their obedience that waned on me most. They were all active, except the youngest with delays. All loud. I would look around and see other children sitting nicely, my kids were running the halls and running circles. We spent lots of time training. It just didn’t seem to come naturally to any of my kids. They were little spit fires. And it easiest to explain and quite probably the result of drug exposure. Attention span and impulse control did not come easy for them.
And it was with all this going on that I became frustrated on a daily basis and the joy of being a homemaker was being zapped away. And it was then that my husband came home one day and reminded me I had to choose joy. His words to me were that if I waited for everything to be perfect, it would never happen, because our children were not going to always be obedient and they were not going to be perfect. EVER.
And this verse became an axiom in our lives. And it was posted on our fridge. And we realized that we have actually have daily instruction for living our lives.
“…rejoice always; pray without ceasing; in everything give thanks; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” I Thessalonians 5:16-18
And my paradigm shifted. And I chose joy.
I chose joy despite my circumstances. And despite the chaos. And despite the hardships. And despite the disobedience. And despite the lack of money. Regardless of it all, I could choose to have a good day or I could choose not to. I could choose to let others rule my day, or not.
And this lesson continues to shape our lives. Our days are what we make of them. We can choose to be rejoice or not. And our day will reflect our attitude. It is this lesson that I hope grabs the heart of my children as well, because we can all sit in self-pity and sorrow if we choose, or we can make our lives better and we can give thanks for what we have.